there's so many things i just wanna jot down now... well to those reading, note that it might not have any link in the tots... so try to make sense of it somehow. haha
was looking thru my blog just now looking... seems plain somehow... but seriously i dun have the time nor energy to really change the template. so any kind blog savvy souls out there who has a great template in mind can help me? lol. it's good that i can change it too... well at least a first step in putting things behind me i guess.
been self-emoing lately... kinda dumb la... but when there's a long weekend with nuthing much to look forward to... maybe thats wad happens i guess. i realise i only have like 4 links in my extentions... no wonder blog like so dead... many a times i feel that i'm just typing all these for myself to read. lol... so any anon readers out there who wants to link just lemme know.
besides work keeping me busy, weekends are quite mundane... wasn't like before. at least i'm spending more time with my mum and sis. my 2 bros also busy with their stuff... work or non-work... wanna meet also tough. well at least thet're just a phone call away.
guild's very quiet for sometime le... why everyone 'pumchek' le ah... lol.. oh grats to Sam, our 1st member on tio-ing helm! Pro liao lor... lol.
well having tots of adding sumthing to blog besides on ranting bout wads goin on in my life or in my head... maybe like write a fictitious story based on real life experience? or maybe start selling stuff here... but that needs more viewership i guess. anyone any ideas... kindly highlight to me hor... thanks in advance.
hmmm... so much misery going on around lately... guess the complexity of the human emotion is really a deep one... how everything that seems so right can just come tumbling down just like that... and how every bad and depressing time works slowly to piece together a path, a light a the end of the tunnel. life as it seems... much said like a roller-coaster ride... as cliche as it might be... is true. God planned this for us so as it brings life to life and not boredom... imagine everything so smooth and neverending like the horizen... it will come to a point where everything would seem meaningless even if it's at the peak. the construction of our very self is ever evolving...never ending... a high in life is just a reward for the last fall we took... as process as it sounds, it's just the basis of driving the engine in wad we all call life.
sorry for bs-ing so much but i just really randomizing wadever i'm thinking now. lol
well i had similar dreams the past few nights... good till when i woke up... everything just seems like a past distant no matter how recent it might seem. Those dreams really made me sad and troubled... but it'll come to pass. many a times i just really want to give up on wad i must do to seek wad i want to do... which is nothing.
ah V-Day's around the corner... memories of the distant past still lingers. ok thurs i better get home fast aft work less i get emo-ed by the scenes playing on that day. lol.
ok this might be out of point but just to tell everyone out there... single or attached! NEVER ever break up with someone between xmas and V-day... it's just way too 'can ren'... tormenting i would say.
ok i feel maybe i really might not wanna work in a bank... why the heck i studied econs man... haiz. anyways going to find my uncle to work on the proposal we had... sourced some potential overseas plce of investment... let's see how far this takes me.
lastly before i forget... thou not impt... but anyway... go catch the show The Leap Years! not that i know half the story about wad's going on but it's actually film made say 2-3 years back and now they are releasing it locally... finally. haha... but most imptly... go see cos will see me inside! lol... so BHB... but ya was doing 'extra' work back then so fun... those who know them... will see Reuben, Liz and her sis Meiling (think her name spell liddat... ps if it's wrong and somehow she sees this) also... quite funny cos will see us dancing and drinking wine(which actually is diluted Ribena)... so rem must go watch k? lol ---> thick-skin self publicity.. also dunno for wad.
ok think i spoke enuff for now... sorry for the verbal diarrhea. going to amend my CV to send out to some non-banking companies to see if got any chance... lol. at this point of time... everything also try la... thou some ppl 'scold' me say got bank offer dun wan... well i believe in living the way u want and not by circumstances. there's more than enough money to be made in the way... it's just how you wanna make it right? i rather have fun and satisfaction then regret... too idealistic...i also say but it's my life... my ideal life... take care y'all
matayimasho!
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