Been stoning in front of the comp for awhile now... my mind's really a blank right now. No one can know how I'm feeling right now. Even I am unable to describe.
Today's a special day... 365 days since I've gotten tog wif dear dear... Time really flies. Everyone wants to remember the good times and forget the bad ones. And I always practice that. It's always the good that keeps us going, keeps us hoping, keeps us strong.
Met dear at city hall at bout 1230 like tht... supposed to go church but in the end didnt. =X Had MOS Burger for lunch - this was our first makan place tog 1 year back. Still rem dear 'kope' my food. Dear wrote me this pink color handmade card with a cute door and disclaimers about her drawing ability. lol. I was so touched by the words and it really meant alot to me. I got dear this cute winne the pooh bowl which im sure she really likes.
Aft lunch we jetted off to Cathay to buy movie tics. We decided to watch the comedy Good Luck Chuck. We had some time b4 the show so we decided to tuang at Minds Cafe for 2Hrs. Played some games which i won thn dear keep saying I play cheat.
Headed for Cathay around 5pm. The show was R21 and was quite funny. It's about Relationships, which is the core of this post actually. Jessica Alba was nicknamed Murphy aft Murphy's Law... Seems like I have to call myself Murphy from now on. I always have this feeling aft watching relationship shows. Although i might not agree wif them totally, I still feel glad tht these shows do apply to our own real life relationship sometimes. I always feel glad tht I'm blessed to have dear aft all these shows. Today was no different.
After the show met Jerry who happened to call me at Minds again... He was with his new stead. =) Twice in a day. LOL. Played games and munch on stuff again. It was enjoyable.
Aft Minds we went our seperate ways and dear suggested we head home le. Dear didnt want me to send her home so i reluctantly got off the train. She said she wanted to be alone. =( I guess as I'm typing this... dear is still outside and not back yet. Just feeling worried and concerned now.
I not going to defend myself here or anything. Like I've said I'm sorry for the hurts and disappointment... but i know I'm trying although it might seem I'm not. It's my bad tht I wasnt able to keep those promises but it wasnt deliberate. It doesn't mean tht I might not be able to meet your expectaions means I dun love you. Love is more than tht. It's a feeling tht cannot be fanthom and to me i know i truly love you no matter wad. You might say or see the things I did not do but the things i did, i did them becos of you.
I just dunno wad to say as you ask me to leave you alone cos i really can't do tht. And you know it.
Dear pls know my feelings for you are real, although I might not play the part... It's always the likes of ones shortcomigns which brings out the true love for another. It's like Charlie in the show. Being afraid of losing the one he loves forever, he just becomes crazy and do stuff tht might render freaky to the one he loves... Just know i feel tht very same way... Pls accept the pebble I wanna give you.
I gotta get back on track in life now... hafta get some income soon. This I hafta do to show tht I mean to provide. Maybe I've been idling too long, due to my very own inertia. Pls believe in me and tht I can do it. Becos I'm doing all these for you, my dear.
I'm sorry once again... Pls forgive me. Never apart. Love you always, Sunshine bear.
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